Writers write right?

Writers write.

At least that’s what my tutors tell me.  And to a large extent they’re right.  But writing alone will never be enough to make me a real writer.

To be a real writer, I must be brutally honest about how I write and more importantly why.

Achieving such self-understanding isn’t easy.  That’s why writers so often warble on about everything else but themselves.   Fiction is easier to write than memoirs.  The world out there is far more interesting (and less scary) than the world within.

Yet readers read me (or not) because – as a person – I bring something new to their table.   Readers are perfectly capable of seeing and describing the world around them.  What they want from me – as a writer – is a new pair of eyes.

To understand what I have to offer my reader, I must look to my 1st house.

My ascendant (cusp of 1st house) is my door to the world.  If it has rose coloured glass, my world is rosy.  If that glass is grey, my world is full of gloom and doom.

I have Cancer rising with Uranus (cool and detached) conjunct my ascendant.   Cancer is supposed to be the most emotional of the zodiac signs.

So when my work was constantly rejected because it lacked emotion, I was understandably confused.

My Gemini Moon (ruler of my Cancer ascendant) is buried deep in my 12th house (the unconscious).   I already understood that I saw the world through the eyes of a little girl who was terrified her mother would stop loving her.  Plenty of emotion there.

Yet what I’d not grasped is that because of my mother’s inconsistent behaviour toward me (thanks to Uranus), I’d learned to put emotional distance between myself and my world.  One minute my mother was hysterically breaking a hairbrush over my bottom for some ‘sin’ I’d not committed; the next she was contentedly curled up beside me with a book of fairy tales.   As a small child, was I to make of that?

For me – the message was clear enough – stay rational – skip the messy stuff – and then folks will like me.

But they won’t read me.

Just when you thought things were going to get better……

Just when you thought things were going to get better,   Pluto and Uranus are coming together – in square – yet again.

We’ll feel the initial effects of this in July and August of this year. But the finale won’t come until March 2015.   What on earth might this mean?

An astrological square is just like it sounds – tension – rock rubs against hard spot – wounds fester, fear dominates, and tempers fly.

Pluto is the great timekeeper of the collective.  He destroys anything and everything that is old and outworn.  Uranus symbolises the eruption of ideas that seize the minds of visionary men.  Yet the voices of the prophets have never been welcome when they bring bad news.

The last square between Pluto and Uranus was in 1933-34.[1]  Then, attempts to reactivate sagging world economies after the crash of ’29 led to Hitler’s rise in Germany (he was seen as both a reformer and national saviour).  In the US, it led to Roosevelt’s ‘New Deal’ (a progressive social program that heralded the start of big government).

1933-34 was the opening of the square.  Now – nearly 82 years  later – as Pluto moves through Capricorn – with the closing square comes fruition. [2]

Through Cancer, we surmise that fear of rejection underlies the suppressed tension of the aspect.

Through Capricorn we anticipate the energy to be released by the square.  Capricorn symbolises the fear of inadequacy  – of failing to achieve.

It is precisely this fear that will drive Capricorn (in the guise of big business, governments, and global economic institutions who are indeed failing to achieve and in fear of rejection) into overdrive.

Enter Uranus in Aries – the energy of the warrior – the crusader – the saviour – the impetuous child.   Might we expect the rise of another Hitler or Roosevelt?  I wouldn’t be at all surprised.  The vacancy is undoubtedly open.

And whoever fills it will rise to power as the result of the collapse and disintegration of that which Capricorn best signifies –  big government and capitalism.[3]

[1] Uranus was in powder keg Aries and Pluto was in maternal Cancer.  The current 2011-2015 square also features Uranus in powder keg Aries.  But Pluto has moved on to oppose maternal Cancer in paternalist Capricorn.

[2] 84 years is roughly the time through which it takes Uranus to make a complete cycle through the 12 zodiac signs.  Thus he has returned once again to Aries to complete the square.

[3] Astrologers may want to take a look at the chart of Karl Marx, who born on 5 May 1818(2 AM in Treves, Prussia) was himself a product of a Uranus/Pluto Square with an opposition of Jupiter in Capricorn and Mars in Cancer across his 11th and 6th houses.