Karmic Dilemmas

Recently, a client  has suggested that certain behavior patterns she recognizes in herself, somehow feel ‘fated’. This prompted me to dust off some work that I’d done on karmic ‘stuff’ a while ago.

Points for initial consideration:

  • General shape of the natal chart – looking for empty spaces (i.e. quadrants or hemispheres rather than single houses). We need to understand the energy ‘flow’ in the chart in order to pinpoint blockages as well as overcompensations. I have absolutely nothing in the 3rd quadrant-  which governs my personal development through relationships, socialization and intellect. I’ve been married twice and have far too many university degrees. Overcompensation? You can bet on it. Chiron is a big karmic factor and guess what – he’s conjunct my 7th house cusp! He’s telling me that I’ve suffered prior ‘wounds’ in relationship that had to do with balancing my own needs and that of the ‘other’. Not surprisingly, this often manifests as ‘I’ll do anything for you to stay in the relationship’ – oops – this sounds exactly like what I’ve been discussing with the marriage counselor. The karmic lesson involved here involves learning to love myself so that I’m not so dependent on the love from my ‘significant other’ (my poor husband). I’ll take that on board and discuss it in my next meeting with that marriage counsellor.
  • Element balance and imbalance – no planets and/or four or more planets. Again, we’re looking for overcompensation and fixations. I have no water in my chart and I often dream of water – not of drowning but instead, of being constantly flooded.
  •  Moon and the South node –  representative of deeply instinctual patterns – something that I’ve done over and over before – and so keep doing it. My Moon is in the 12th house – the most karmic of the houses. This definitely has to do with ‘mother-stuff’ (I spent years on ‘mother’ in my therapy – and I do mean years) – and of course emotions – or rather being ‘detached’ from my emotions because otherwise it causes too much personal pain with which I cannot deal. Don’t be surprised to learn that my South Node is in Cancer. Doesn’t this tie in (too) nicely with my lack of ‘water’ and recurrent ‘mother issues’?
  • Certain aspect patterns – with this, we’re looking to spot karmic dilemmas’:cropped-cropped-cropped-cropped-cropped-cropped-blrheader-1-3-3-5.png
    • Oppositions – tendency to farm out one side of the dilemma on to someone else.
    • Squares – tendency to ignore everything until it blows up in your face.
    • Trines – represents difficulties from the past that you’ve tentatively sorted – so the test is now – did you really learn your lesson?
    • Conjunctions – suggest that you’ve learned your lesson well enough but now really need to put it into practice. With Saturn conjunct Neptune, I’m personally dealing with the mystical pragmatists dilemma and I may be on my way to solving it now that I’ve retired from practicing international tax law and instead, am practicing astrology.
Saturn/ Neptune Mystical Pragmatist – do I float on a cloud and meditate or fill my bank account? The challenge is to ‘float’ whilst grounded! You cannot flip into either end of the spectrum.
Saturn/Jupiter Contraction/Expansion – this is a natural cycle so you can’t always remain in one or the other. The challenge is to get into tune with the natural rhythm of your chart.
Saturn/Uranus Maintenance/Change – don’t throw the baby out with the bath water! The challenge is to keep using the wisdom that you’ve gained.
Jupiter/Sun Positive self-image – you’ve worked hard to develop this in the past. The challenge now is how to best use it.
Saturn/Sun Different self-image – you’ve worked hard to develop a firm (not necessarily bad) self-image in the past. The challenge again is how best to use it now.


Working with Your Lunar Nodes

unknownThe nodes are oft associated with karma and reincarnation – the South Node representing what you’ve accomplished in past lives (both good and bad) and the North Node representing what you are meant to accomplish during your present incarnation. But even if you don’t believe in karma or reincarnation, you can still benefit from working with your nodes.

Consider that the South Node represents energy with which it’s easy for you to work while the North Node represents not just challenges but also opportunities to develop new skills, attitudes, and perspectives.

In my chart, the (mean) nodal axis is Capricorn/Cancer suggesting that while I can easily handle domestic situations (family, home, and all things Cancerian), I’m challenged when it comes to my worldly ambitions.untitled

Despite my apparently ‘successful’ 30 plus year career in international tax law, I can assure you that I have been challenged – each and every step that I took along my career path was painful, not the least because such a path was unusual (if not actively discouraged) for women of my generation. This was brought home to me in spades when, about 25 years ago, I found myself working for a female tax partner in the Netherlands whose nodal axis was exactly opposite mine (this will always be the case with people born 9 years – or multiples of 9 years apart). She was the epitome of what I knew that I was meant to be. But as she pushed me along the same path that she’d taken, I realised that I didn’t really have the heart or courage to be what she’d become. I blamed her but in reality, it wasn’t her fault. Never forget that your nodes are just waiting for someone to activate them.

unknownWith North Node in Capricorn, my task is to build a separate life, business, and/or career that is mine, and mine alone. I am meant to toughen up – become an elder – a ‘wise’ one – develop a savvy attitude vis a vis the outside world. I must move out of my comfort zone (South Node) and go for the adventure (North Node). In this regard, my Sun in Libra and my Moon in Gemini (nodes are by their very nature intimately connect with the Sun and Moon) can help me and they did (Sun in Libra = justice/diplomacy and Moon in Gemini = education/communication – all good stuff for a lawyer).

But even more important is my Saturn in Libra, which because it is in square aspect to my nodal axis is that extra piece of important information with which I must come to terms on my journey from Cancer to Capricorn. Because of the square to the nodal axis, my Saturn also has the responsibility of distributing my time and energy between the nodes. Never forget that although you’re supposed to ‘do’ your North Node, you still have your South Node to fall back on; think of it as a  place of temporary retreat.

Unfortunately, I’m still coming to terms with how my Saturn in Libra is trying to help me. I hoped that with my second Saturn return (aged 59) I’d finally figure it out. I was disappointed. The only thing that I learned during that time was that I no longer had any enthusiasm to pursue ‘worldly ambitions’ – at least in regards to my career in international tax law. Saturn slows us down and makes us take a cold hard look at the realities we’ve built in our lives. I saw only that it was going to be a long, hard slog to retirement when at last, I would be free to follow my real passion, astrology. Now that retirement has finally arrived, it remains for me to get back in touch again with my North Node and set up my new business, whatever form it will take.

Ms D and Mr B – it’s all about Communication



The relationship of Ms D and Mr B is all about communication and the honest expression of feelings and the good news is that all the ingredients are present for this to go very well – however just make sure that you don’t ignore other key aspects of your relationship, especially the physical – otherwise it may well have difficulty standing the test of time.


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Grand trine – Jupiter, Moon, Uranus

Composite Moon suggests how honestly you express your emotions with each other – and with Composite Jupiter in trine (easy aspect) this probably goes well. The sympathy you share with each other will likely have a positive, morally uplifting effect for you both.

At the same time please understand that with Composite Uranus in the mix, you’ll need to  deal with each other in new and usual ways; certain attributes like stability and predictability found in conventional relationships may well be missing from yours. Take heart, however, because this allows you both maximum freedom of expression. The greatest potential of this relationship is for positive change and expansion in both of  your world-views while at the very same time still making you feel comfortable and cozy.

Mercury trine Neptune and sextile Pluto

Composite Mercury indicates the level and degree of communication in the relationship and with a trine (easy aspect) this will most like be approached intuitively and sensitively. Just beware that you don’t confuse your personal ideals with present reality – it’s all too easy to get lost when your head is in the clouds. Luckily with Composite Pluto in sextile (easy aspect) this should not prove difficult. Pluto gives you both a rare opportunity to get significant insight into the real forces at work in your relationship.

Sun sextile North Node and trine South Node

Composite Sun in trine/sextile (easy) aspect to the nodal axis suggests some kind of karmic connection. Most certainly this relationship is unusually important for the both of you and you can expect that it will take you to places (physical and/or mental) you’d not otherwise go.

Resurrection leads to Judgement and from there to ….?

Easter is an excellent time to consider that the doctrine of the resurrection leads straight to that of judgement, which like Karma, leads to the moment  when the ‘rewards’ for your past efforts appear.

Sounds scary, I admit.   But the wisdom of the Tarot suggests that for those who’ve met certain preconditions, judgement is a time of transformation, healing, and – at long last – becoming whole.

So what are those preconditions?  The symbolism on the card makes them clear.

The three persons who are being resurrected from the square grave embody the trinity (divinity), which is now freed from the quarternity (the earthly world).  This suggests that what is authentic, essential, and divine in you is liberated but only to the extent you have been true to yourself.

Through its cross sum, Judgement (XX) connects to The High Priestess (II), to which the cross sum of Strength (XI) also leads.  This link makes clear that commitment and a will to life (Strength) are preconditions of the redemption and healing of Judgment, which comes not from your actions but from the mercy  dispensed by the High Priestess if – and only if –  you’ve allowed yourself to be guided by a higher power than your own.